goodbye, little molar

Okay, I just tried to write a whole blog entry about my day today but it kept getting more and more boring. Here's the skinny:

the pain of that abscess started to come back (as I would told it probably would)
I'm saving as much money as I can so I can go to Alexander Technique school within the next 3 years
I don't have dental insurance
root canals are expensive
I got my upper right back molar extracted, it was invasive
they wouldn't let me keep the tooth, even though I asked extra nicely
there is now a gaping hole in the back of my mouth
I was told to take ibuprofen, no prescription pain killers offered

Here's a little interaction the surgeon and I had when he first walked in:

Dr. So and So: So what brings you here today?
ipj: I need to get a tooth extracted.
Dr. SaS (looking at my x-rays): Oh, your lower right molar?
ipj: Umm, nooo...my upper right molar.
Dr. SaS: Oh. Really?

He later told me that whoever (my old when-I-had-insurance dentist) did my last two root canals (less than a year ago!) did a very poor job and that I'd have to have one of those molars (the lower right, hence his confusion) extracted as well.

I tried to take a picture of the gaping hole but none of them turned out. Too bad for you, I know you'd like to see my wound.

in my own way

For Gay Pride

I didn't:

go to the parade

wear anything pink or rainbow colored

I did:

drink kombucha

watch My Favorite Broadway: The Leading Ladies

For Independence Day

I didn't:

wave an American flag

go to a barbecue/party

I did:

go to work

I think I caught the basic essence of both days, don't you?

I want to break things

Trying to teach yourself a new knitting technique by following seemingly vague instructions with absolutely no pictures using the smallest needles you've ever held, all at 1 in the morning can be fucking frustrating!

Luckily I found this video that explains the first step of the technique I'm trying to learn. Of course she's using giant aluminum needles and loose knitting so it looks easy. Whereas I'm using teeny bamboo needles with extra tight tension.

not quite grammar but

I've been continuing my thoughts on the body lately, specifically my body and specifically symmetry in the body. In an attempt to sort out possible lopsidedness caused by habits I've started doing things with my left hand, my non-dominant hand.  Things like opening my bag, getting my keys and unlocking my door, zipping my jeans or stirring food and also...taking care of personal hygiene. I've started wiping with my left hand.  One of my instructors even talked about this the other day. If you spend your whole like twisting and bending to one side of your body that certainly going to cause an imbalance even if you're not immediately aware of it. So I've tried to switch things up.  Have you tried this before? It's hard! I've taken to taking one last swipe with my right hand just to make sure because if I learned one thing in school it's the importance of double-checking your work.

things keep changing

I've been trying to go on an ice cream fast lately. I was going to say ice cream diet but now that I've typed both it seems that the same problem exists no matter which way you say it. I don't mean to say I'm eating only ice cream, though how wonderful woud that be? but that I'm not eating any ice cream. It's only been going moderately well but considering that I had been eating practically a pint a night the rate I'm down to now is pretty promising.

I've also decided to give up porn. It's like a battle of addictions within me!  Is this a bad idea to give up two addictions at once? Or will I go crazy and some late night just lube up with a cup of soft serve? Should I phase one addiction out and just give in to the other or try to go cold turkey on both? Maybe I'm just trying to justify eating ice cream. I really really want some!

trial

Parfait and I are going through a trial of no TV for a week.  It started Monday.  I unplugged our TV and put it on top of a bureau, screen turned away.  I felt like we kept coming home and automatically turning on the TV.  We'd usually end up watching Food Network, which I do think is pretty fun but at the same time, not necessary.  As a concession I plug in the TV each night before going to bed so that Parfait can turn on the Today Show in the morning, it's how he starts his morning.  He doesn't ever really watch it that much, it's more to set his time by.  And he's stressed enough at work right now that I didn't push it.  The only other time we can pull the TV back out is if we're going to watch a movie.  Hulu though is still an option but that's harder to pull out and just have on.  We only go to Hulu if, again, we have something specific to watch. I was a little worried that I'm obsessed with creating trials that will test our relationship but maybe that's okay.  If we don't have anything to talk about without TV then I'd rather know that now.  Things have been okay so far. I've turned the radio on a lot more, which still isn't just quiet but at least doesn't have commercials.  And it's reminded me how much to use to listen to NPR and I miss it.  Plus I heard some great music the other night.  We'll see how the rest of the week goes.  I suggested only seven days but I'm hoping that when next Monday comes around I'll be able to push for a month.  Breaking my addictions one at a time.  What's next? My computer?  Ice cream?  Those might be too powerful.

still good

When I was younger my sister and liked to play the Bad Choreography game.  It's pretty simple, just dance around and try to emote through movement as much intense feeling as you can.  It's almost guaranteed to be bad choreography.  That's kind of what it looks like Kate Bush is doing.  And yet, it works wonderfully.  She's going against so many things I learned about choreography in school but she sells it and believes it.  If I had seen all those ballerinas in college dancing with this conviction I probably would have scoffed less.